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Am i allowed to talk abt my self in this blog? hmm~

Of course! hello it is my blog! like DUH...

Oh i forgot...i'm supposed to say more abt myself! hahaha here goes:

As much as i wld love to tell u abt my detailed life, i don think its e right time to juz yet. So for this post will be abt...hmm... my hobbies? wat i watch? wat i listen to? wat i do? Lets juz go wit the flow shall we? hahaha

For the past 21 years of my life spent here on earth, i've had no problems with eating food... well, except for eggs(was allergic to them once upon a time bt all i had to do was to cut down on e intake n i'm gd to go!)... Hmm bt fate has taken its turn n most of the things that i have eaten b4, i'm nt able to eat it in e yr 2010...How sad :( Believe it anot, i even have my CANs and CANNOTs list! I'm telling u, i have more CANNOTS than CANs...Haiz at least it had gotten better... Here is juz a small list of mu CANs and CANNOTs list(updated Ver):

CAN:

• Chicken
• Mushroom
• Beef

CANNOT:

• All seafood including fish(except for fishball)
• Look at the 1st point... Want the details?

Oh and i had a reaction to dried squid too! my mom decided to soak them for 1 night and it had gotten really stinky that i cld smell it from my room! The smell at e living rm was worse! Too bad the PC is outside at the living rm n nt knowing dat i'll have a reaction from juz smelling it, i stayed outside for juz enough time to have an allergic reaction to occur... I'd started to feel the itch at my neck thinking dat its juz normal itch n so i decided to go n slp(yea right)... As i was on my bed reading...My worst nightmare have started! I went totally red from neck to hips! totally infected! Damn, i was freaking out and panicking at e same time... i was thinking of wat id eaten b4 bt had nt been eating anyth much tho... e only thing dat had attacked me was e horrible smell of the dried squid! OMG! i quickly ran outta room n ate my meds... din really work right there n then... i had to wait den the itch had subsided... phew! Went to dream land right after that...~

Life's already hard for me n it's juz getting harder... Well i say - Bring it on! Allergies Mallergies... i even have to take precautions wen i'm outside coz even if the soup has anchovies in it, i can't buy it coz it'll only give me rashes... dang~ lol

It has ocurred to me that everywhere i go, my sexuality is been asked... i wonder why~ Wen i was small, i've always been a tomboy... aunts and uncles have been asking me y do i nt behave, act or dress as a girl? Well, i basically grew up wit boys even tho i have a sister, she was bz bcoming a bookworm that point of tme so i nvr really knew her that well...sometimes i'd forget dat i had a sister until i was older(sorry sis if ure reading this bt its e truth). my cousins wld come by our house on wkends and we'd end up playing under the block. Soccer, catching, playground, etc...all are basically boys stuff n i've nvr wanted e barbie doll that every girl wldve wanted coz i din c any pt in combing a dolls hair n putting clothes on it and wtv girls do wit dolls...i think i cut a hair of someone's doll once hahaha the hair was all over the plc anyway!

primary sch was a breeze for me... i din get into too much trouble, i gt in to e sch's track n field team(yes, i was a sprinter...), gt to play soccer n minded my own bzness most of the time... Sec sch life for me was a bit hard tho wit all e stupid boys teasing me(coz i was fat DUH) was lucky i went thru that w/out killing myself hahaha!

I really DID wanted to try on girls clothes and mind u i did... i wore dresses on certain occasions juz to be on e normal side... u know how relatives are if ure nt properly dressed if ure nt girly enough, ure nt pretty... wtv... all i wanted to juz wear tshirts or shirts n pants... i find it more comfy for me... even if it's on Hari Raya... i wld wear my tshirt n shorts inside of the baju kurung and wld take them off after photo sessions are over. Sometime i'd take em off wen i reach my gmas plc(thets where every1 goes to 1st)...haha i juz love the feeling of cotton on my body then any other materials... ew!

The qn is, so what if i wear clothes that boys do? Is that a crime? Do i have to be a butch or a lesbian in order for me to wear those clothings that i love? Well i think that SOME ppl can be so conservative sometimes doncha think?! The fact that i grew up wit boys doesnt necessarily make me 1 doesnt it? Oh and i forgt to add, Juz WHERE in SINGAPORE do u get big sized clothes and nt to mention CHEAP in singapore? Most ppl wld think that i'll fit into women's XL well, think again... if life was thay easy honey, id be the most beautiful fat girl in Singapore. Fuck it! the whole WORLD! I figured i don like them anyways so y bother look for it... Unless i'm a free woman i still have to look for girl clothings... Parents, u juz cant get away from them! If u love them u'll juz have to obey them...bt sometimes i get my own way hehe!

I cant even imagine myself being a girly girl *tries to imagine...Shakes head* -NO WAY! Looks like i'm nt gonna tell u wat sex i belong to coz i don like to be categorized anyway... straight, lesbian, gay...i'd say i'm me and accept the way that i am or juz don come near me... *growls*

Its been a fun time writing this down... Thx Blog-ary for patiently waiting for me to finish this post which took me a lifetime to finish and also thx to my oh so wonderful creatures and human beings that are reading my troubles in life. Good Morning(Time to sleep -zzzzzz-)

CYA!

Believe it or not (Dot Dot Dot)

I officially have 1 follower! that is The Mar... He's my colleague, my friend and my supporter and i hope it stays that way! you can even read his blog at The Mar (Thx for being there for me man!) .

I have been thinking of what topic to write for this post long n hard bt i cant seem to find the right topic. I guess i don have to find the right topic bt i juz have to write abt wat's happening with my life! hmm... i guess i'll make this blog like a diary for me... i shall make it my Blog-ary(get it? Blog + Diary?)

The qn is, wat have been happening to me lately... i'd say ALOT! Where should i start? lets run a list.

• I have started my diet starting on 22nd Feb 2010. If i were to tell u wat kinda diet i'm on, u'll tell me all sorta names so i shall keep it at that! Don't worry, i'm nt in any way or another starving myself... i do eat.
• I been drinking mostly plain water most of the time except for when i eat i'll have to drink MILO juz so that it'll make my tummy full-er... and i have to eat slowly. I have figured that i don have to eat alot in order to be full, i juz have to eat slowly n savor my food so that i won't eat too much. Trust me it works like a charm!
• As u know that i've been gg to the gym n working out... at 1st, it was tiring for me bt i have found my rhythm n have gradually increasing the time... I havn't really felt any chges yet, bt i hope to see it in 6 mths time. The reason y it's 6 mths is coz i wanna surprise myself instead of c-ing myself chg gradually... I wonder if it sounds gd now that i'm thinking abt it.
• It's been a while since i've read books so i decided to read on some. Last week, ive heard of my colleagues (Shellie & Priya) talking abt reading books abt women in Iran, Iraq, Afghanistan... u know those countries...I was kinda inspired by them to read up on these books. And so i went to the library and borrowed 2 books. So far, ive read 1 n its called Zoya's Story very tragic n horrible it made me cry(yes i have feelings...) when her parents died and later her grandmother. I have no other terrible words to describe the book. U'll have to read it to understand how the world around her is so CRUEL .
• I'm waiting to read the next book in line... I have this thing abt reading books wen i'm on e road dats y i don read it at home coz i'll juz finish it in a day... I hope my trips to the gym will be filled with me reading the book. Sometimes the journey juz seems like its too short coz i get very occupied.
• What u dunno is what i read at night *doing the eyebrow* hahaha its totally different from i read in e afternoon den wen i'm on my bed reading at night... I shall not let u in on that 1 bt i juz wanted to let u know of wat i do at night before i slp...wen i cant slp... Don't think of anything dirty now! its not what u think it is... really!
• I don't think every1 knows abt this bit of me tho...hmm everytime i have the time to go online, e 1st thing i'll do is go to Facebook to update myself on things around me especially to take care of my fishes in Fishville! hehe den i'll update my self with Korea's entertainment at ALLKPOP after that, i'll check on my e-mail. Nowadays, i've been listening to some of english songs i'll have my updates at 98.7fm website and KIISFM den u know the next steps on how it gets on my PSP.

I guess that's it for now... these are the list that i do everyday this wk...

Anymore abt me, hmm yes there is bt i'll save it for the next post! CYA!

Normal or Abnormal

hey! this Is officially my first POST on my OWN blog! so...shld i or shld i nt introduce myself to e world? hmm...

Maybe i shld coz there might be ppl out there there that doesnt know me...so i shall start with the basics.

My name's Hanah... my full name, u do not need to know bt there's a Hanah somewhere in there. As of the year 2010, my age is this year is 22 years young! yes i am young! i'm a female(like duh shows in my name. have u heard of a guys name that has Hanah in it? well, if u have pls tell me.) i hvn't really weighed myself lately but as of 3 weeks ago, my weight was 100kg believe it anot... haiz... but! as of 1 wk ago, i have started my cleansing treatment(which includes me to basically eating right and exercising) and hopefully it will last for a very long time this time. I need ur SUPPORT ppl! pls support me thru my hardships in losing weight!!! I have been gg to e gym regularly - 3 time a week... 2hours a day and crunches everynight. hmm... hope there'll be results by the end of the year!

For those that see me on the streets...those who judge me by my appearance, they'll think of me as juz another fat girl who eats alot and makes fun at herself juz coz im fat. Well to tell u the truth, it hurts everytime i talk about myself.... won't u feel the same if you were me? imagine urself being fat gg to school n being treated badly by ur peers juz coz ure FAT! damn it hurts!

well, it hurts more if ure family is getting it too... For me, i'm e only 1 in the family who's fat n whenever i go out with them, ppl will ask me whether i'm part of the family or not juz coz im FAT! life is hard but nt as hard as to those who r suffering in 3rd world countries n natural disasters countries... its heart breaking that they have to thru hell everyday... why can't there juz be peace in this world? why must they take over each other's countries and rule it like they own it?

Anyways, other then being fat, i have been told that i look like a Chinese... i cant help it if both my gmothers are from China. I have no idea how they met my gfathers tho... I shall start with my father side of the story: my gmother from china and gfather from india who came to malacca. Now i dunno how they met but india and china are far away as i know... how they met, still stays as a mystery to me... as for my mother side of the story is easy... my gmother was from china bt her parents came to spore to seek more income here den it was war time in spore n they had to give my gmother to a muslim family in order to let their daughter survive... my gfather was from 1 of the riau islands - Bengkalis...i've been there like 2-3 times n dat was it... life was poor bt i juz don click with the ppl there... anyways he came to spore n became a taxi driver n gt married to my gmother! i heard from my mom dat my gmother was hot stuff back then wearing tight baju kebaya with killer heels everything! woohoo! cool shit man!Too bad i inherited my gmother's nose(flat chinese traditional nose) and nt my gfather's nose...

I shall write more about me in POSTS to come! if u wanna know more about me or have qns to ask me, pls feel free to ask! i gotta go get ready for gym! cya ltr!